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Saturday, January 10th, 2009
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4:30 pm - Who's to say what will happen?
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Smoke and haze, smoke and haze
Everything is one more pipe dream
Illusions of the ideal
Visions of visions
Pleasant nightmares haunting me long after I wake up
Why can’t anything be real?
I’m tired of slashing through shadows
Nothing holds up
It all falls away in an instant
A pinpricked water balloon
Suspended in the air
Watching your reflection hit the ground in every droplet
This is the price we pay for fantasy
For wishing on stray lashes
We dream and disconnect
current mood: trepidatious
current music: Burial - Archangel
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| Saturday, December 20th, 2008
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8:11 pm - This is for you
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Thank you for finding me again
for inspiring me anew.
You were stressed, but transformed
your many faces shining, sparkling
like rain
Despite your newly formed exterior, I can still see your soft youth
your excitement at life’s simple pleasures
An ocean view
Smooth smoke
Melody
And the look of words on the page and their sound in your ear
It’s been years since you took me to that place and now, thousands of miles away
I am there again
The trees and birds may be gone
But the view is the same
And though it may be foggy
Clouds rolling
down over water
up over hills
I can still see you clearly
Thank you, friend
Thank you, muse
current mood: anxious
current music: Kylie Minogue - Speakerphone
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| Monday, December 8th, 2008
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12:37 am - It's a start
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Give in to it.
Let it surround you.
Feel your hair prick up as it
flows around you.
Let it become you.
Hear its pulse.
Ba-dump
Ba-dump
Ba-dump
Ba-dump
It is your pulse.
Let it merge with you.
Replace your plasma with quarter notes
your platelets eighths and sixteenths.
Feel yourself rising.
your feet lifting
Let your eyes lie to you
you don’t need to see.
The sounds are enough.
Close your eyes and feel her
floating with you.
Let it beat your eardrums down.
You don’t need them.
Listen with your body.
current music: So English Is Good (DJ Pedro Palooze Carioca Clube)-Tokyo Police Club-palmsout.com remix sunday 94
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12:28 am - Two years later, it starts again.
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What is to follow is a collection of works in progress, an all too self-indulgent extension of my need to create.
current mood: worn
current music: One Of Them (Kanji Kinetic's Vegeburger Bootleg)-Limewax-palmsout.com remix sunday 94
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| Thursday, December 14th, 2006
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3:19 am
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new Explosions in the Sky
going home on friday
+ being done with work
a very happy zack
current mood: excited
current music: Explosions In The Sky - What Do You Go Home To?
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| Sunday, November 26th, 2006
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10:27 am
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He sits in the room alone. It's way too big now. What comfortably housed many seems daunting, that much more space to be left empty, taunting and teasing him. Scattered remains of better times litter the floor like wounded soldiers on the battlefield, every one of them evoking memories of livelier events. The bed in the corner, with all its crumpled sheets, empty again, devoid of the passion it once held. Unlike the room, it had been much too small to fit another within its confines, but he stirs at night, reaching out and feeling the lack of a figure curled up next to him, the lack of the figure's warmth spreading to and through his body like a perfume, intoxicating his sense of touch. Looking out the window he expects to see that familiar blue stretch on into its familiar forever, but instead sees only the enveloping clouds. Their dirty white is the perfect shade to match the dirty white of his walls, and it merely creates an extension of his prison, and rather than seeing that little blue bit of hope on the outside of his emptiness, there is only more space to fill.
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| Monday, October 30th, 2006
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4:26 pm - This is why I love my brother
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[23:48:17] DwnThRabbitHole: yo diggity
[23:48:25] crazycmnky: what it do
[23:49:27] DwnThRabbitHole: just popped some purpills and now we goin' hella dumby ghostridin the yellow bus now
[23:49:38] crazycmnky: word?
[23:49:46] DwnThRabbitHole: yadidimean?
[23:49:50] crazycmnky: go dumb ride da yellowbus?
[23:50:00] crazycmnky: i got some new rap
[23:50:08] crazycmnky: it's off tha chain yaherd
[23:50:24] DwnThRabbitHole: who it be?
[23:50:47] crazycmnky: jibbs, the pack, and other assorted black people
[23:50:59] DwnThRabbitHole: i don't know them
[23:51:02] DwnThRabbitHole: wait, the pack?
[23:51:09] DwnThRabbitHole: like, original hyphy shit?
[23:51:17] crazycmnky: word, b-town
[23:51:25] crazycmnky: berkeley high
[23:51:30] DwnThRabbitHole: sik wit it
[23:52:16] DwnThRabbitHole: you heard the federation?
[23:52:23] crazycmnky: word
[23:52:26] crazycmnky: i got that too
[23:52:31] crazycmnky: stunna glasses at night
[23:53:00] DwnThRabbitHole: which album is that on?
[23:53:04] crazycmnky: i got some macdrizzle too
[23:53:11] crazycmnky: i don't know what album
[23:54:02] DwnThRabbitHole: all i have is federation: the album
[23:54:18] crazycmnky: ill send it to you
[23:54:51] DwnThRabbitHole: it's got hyphy and go dumb on it
[23:55:05] crazycmnky: hold up
current mood: hyphy
current music: Mistah Fab Ft. E-40, Turf Talk - Super Sic Wit It
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| Wednesday, October 25th, 2006
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2:50 pm
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| Wednesday, August 23rd, 2006
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6:20 am
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| Tuesday, August 22nd, 2006
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2:00 am
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I hope so much that I'm strong enough. I want to be so badly.
current music: Smashing Pumpkins - 1979
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| Tuesday, June 20th, 2006
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4:34 pm - Silly Carlos...
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| Friday, June 9th, 2006
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9:48 am - So this is the end...
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Finally, the time has come. The time to leave this place, and while I'm quite sad about all of the people who will no longer be a constant part of my life, I couldn't be happier to finally be getting out of Miramonte and Orinda. 15 years is long enough. Goodbye.
current mood: contemplative
current music: Dosh - Rock It To The Next Episode
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| Sunday, May 14th, 2006
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2:32 pm - So many memories gone...
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So, about a month ago, I ran out of room on my hard drive. I decided to export a bunch of materials onto DVDs. On one of these DVDs were all of my pictures. About 2 gigs of pictures. And now I can't find it. I'm extremely upset. So I guess what I'm getting at is, does anybody have any pictures of me they can share for my memory board?
EDIT: Hooray! My DVD has been found, much to my relief. Pictures are still welcome, as I am a huge attention whore as you all know.
current mood: distressed
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| Tuesday, May 9th, 2006
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12:55 pm
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I got into Sarah Lawrence off of the wait list today. I'm really happy about it, but I have no idea what to do.
current mood: confused
current music: The Boy Least Likely To - My Tiger My Heart
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| Tuesday, April 11th, 2006
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7:05 pm - I've got sunshine on a cloudy day
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| Tuesday, April 4th, 2006
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10:09 pm
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Today we rented a car and went off to visit Sarah Lawrence and Bard. I was coping with not going there pretty well; I know I would be perfectly happy at UC Santa Cruz, but both of these schools are amazing. The Sarah Lawrence curriculum is phenomenal, and works a lot like how WISE does. In terms of the campus, it's quite nice; small, about the size of Campo, but kinda cozy. Bard on the other hand, is huge. Some 600 acres owned by the school, in addition to an incredible amount of classes in various fields of study, just about all of which I love. I guess all I can do now is wait. Sarah Lawrence said they had about 600 kids on the waitlist, which is probably the amount they admit, considering there's about 350 students in each class. Bard has about 400 on their waitlist, twice as many as last year's, from which they took about 20. The odds do not appear to be in my favor. Anyways, I get home tomorrow, albeit around 11 at night. I'm gonna have to get out somewhere, although my dad insists otherwise, but quite frankly, I don't think I can deal with being in close proximity with him any longer. On a happier note, on the way back to Manhattan from Bard, we stopped at the Culinary Institute of America for dinner. It was one of the best meals I have ever had, and everybody working there, who were all students enrolled at the school, was incredibly friendly. I guess I'll have some pictures up later, as I'm feeling rather lazy and don't feel like choosing which ones to upload, or photoshopping those that need tweaking. So yeah. Finally, I am coming home.
current mood: tired
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| Monday, April 3rd, 2006
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9:04 am
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Being away from home is not healthy for me. And my dad is being an asshole. I am so ready to be back home.
On another note, we went to a restaurant today, and it was possibly the most jewish establishment I have ever seen. Some quotes from my dad:
(Commenting on the large amount of jewish patrons) "You know what's great about being in places like this? You know no one is out to get you."
"Do you remember Jared when he was blond? I mean, he was really blond, like nazi blond."
My dad is a fucking lunatic, by the way.
current mood: homesick
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| Friday, March 31st, 2006
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7:10 pm
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| Tuesday, March 28th, 2006
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10:08 pm - A new relationship is about to blossom. You will be blessed.
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Well, I leave for New York tomorrow morning. My flight leaves at eight, meaning I have to get up somewhere around five. Hella lame. I'll miss you all. Hopefully I'll have wireless internet in the hotel room. I'll have my cell phone with me, but I doubt I'll be able to use it. My god, a week without any contact from home. I don't know if I'm gonna make it.
And don't bitch about college.
current mood: exhausted
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| Monday, March 13th, 2006
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9:57 pm - iTunes memez0rz
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Put your music library on shuffle and answer the questions with songs in the order they come up. it doesn't really make sense at times, but some answers you come up with will freak you out.
1. What's my mood like right now?
Whiskey
2. How's tomorrow going to be for me?
Absence Of God
3. What kind of person am I?
Communication Drive-In
4. Am I loved?
A Devil Among The Tailors
5. How can I achieve my highest potential?
Marooned
6. What should I do with my life?
Labyrinth
7. Is everything really going to be alright in the end?
Boots Of Spanish Leather
8. What is my best quality?
Ambulance
9. How does my sex life look?
Flint (For The Unemployed And Underpaid )
10. What's the meaning of life?
Caribou
11. What do people think of me?
The Legionnaire's Lament
12. Would I make a good catch?
Little Kids
13. How crazy am I?
In The Lost And Found (Honky Bach)
14. Will I have a good life in general?
Prison Province
15. Can (insert name here) ever really love me?
Capital Kind Of Strain
16. Can (insert name here) and I ever be more than friends?
Uncontrollable Urge
17. What's going to happen to me this week?
Per Second Second
18. Where will I be a year from now?
Circlewave
19. What is my biggest wish?
Come Back
20. What is the love of my life doing at this very moment?
Stupidity Tries
21. How will I die?
Over The Bend
22. What will happen after I die?
When The Going Gets Tough, The Tough Get Karazzee
23. How do my friends feel about me?
A Method
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